part by part, i am disintergrating. i can feel myself becoming a redundant mass of robotic motion and disenchanted melodrama. i wish that the things in my life that are supposed to be fulfilling my needs and my dreams were truly working their magic, but i am sorry to say that they aren't.

i did get to escape last night for quite some time, but in the end, it left me and now i am here and back again. okay.